Lately, I have also been using lists to cope with the uncertainty of the next few weeks/months. I leave nothing to chance: eat breakfast, floss, e-mail so and so, breathe.
But lists haven't been helping much lately. I realize I need more. I need projects, enormous goals, marathons, mountains to climb - that kind of thing. During the school year my most common complaint was - I'm so busy or I'm so overwhelmed. But I love busy. I love purposeful busy. And I love knowing the destination and the reason for why I'm being busy.
I tell myself often to go with the flow but this time of 'not knowing' is really testing my ability to follow this mantra.
I have absolutely no idea where, what or who I'll be teaching in the next three weeks - I'm going mildly insane. On any given day/hour I can be hopeful or utterly hopeless. I do what normal people do on vacation - I go out with friends, cook, watch movies, go to the beach. I had a lovely afternoon with Sam and Yvonne today - two of my old after school program students. I've really had an awesome summer but at the end of the day, what I wonder is this - when will I start teaching again?
This summer has been all about learning how to fall and how to pick myself back up. Over and over. Sometimes alone. Sometimes with the help of friends. Or with the help of lists. My most recent attempt to stand back up? My first classroom website/edublog.
The edublog will be for my future students and parents but you are welcome to take a look. I'm hopeful - against all odds:Ms Pang's Edublog
Build it and it will come. Is that how the quote goes?
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